As I’m sure you ALL know I’ve been having trouble deciding on which songs to record for my EP. So, I decided to literally let fate decide. I got my selection down to 9 songs that I couldn’t decide between. They were all equally strong contenders. I wrote all the names down on a piece of paper, tore each name off and rolled it up into a tiny ball. Then took a few deep breaths and stared down for a few minutes before making my selection of 5.
At first I thought, what if I choose the wrong songs? Then I remembered a game that we used to play when we were kids and couldn’t decide between 2 things. Someone would hold the 2 items behind their back, make us pick a hand and then ask, ‘Which one do you wish it was?’ Then you had to answer right away, because that was the one that you truly desired. So the thought of an instant moment of clarity gave me comfort!
I took a deep breath, feeling the thrill of finally deciding on which songs to record, and then the fact that I was letting fate decide made it all the more exciting. I mean, I have control of EVERYTHING when it comes to my music. So giving that up was huge!
The songs that were drawn were: Endless Summer, Body Language, Hanging By A Thread, Champagne and Natural Disaster.
I was surprisingly pleased by the selection and didn’t want to exchange any of them. I had been deliberating between Endless Summer and Breathless, knowing that I had to choose one or the other. Body Language and 10,000 Ways to Love Me were another two I couldn’t decide between. Fall in Love All Over Again was one that I loved very much, but rated poorly in my test pool, so I wanted to select it but wasn’t sure if it was a wise decision. And I loved Nostalgia but one of my requirements for this EP was that each song had to have remix potential, and I just couldn’t hear it for that one.
So, I can’t help but wonder, if I hadn’t chosen pieces of paper from a tin jar lid, and had chosen them based on pro’s and cons lists, endless hours of thinking, worrying and hoping I’d made the right decision… Would I have ended up with the same song selection anyways? Do we really have control over everything or is it just an illusion that we create for ourselves to give us comfort?
From now on I feel like I will literally let fate decide, where it applies of course! ;)